diary of a not so meloncholy whore...

i may change the title later. this blog is intended to be a compilation, is that the right word?, of thoughts, photos, random ramblings and musings of me a indepenedent sex worker living in new york. i'm a sensual massage therapist.

Saturday, October 23, 2004

uptown girl

so i went to see o., my dear french picasso dealer on christopher street tonight. his neighborhood is crazy on the weekends. tons of trannies and young lesbians from jersey and moneyed gays and poor gays and fashionistas and artists spilling over onto the street from sidewalk cafes, clubs and the subway and the stoops of little tenement apartments.

....and he always has me wear something conservative and black. black pleated skirt, black vneck sweater, heels etc. tonight this silk black skirt. anywhere else in new i'd just blend. here this sort of classy conservatism is sort of rare. maybe that's why he so likes to see it. it's funny, the only time i really feel like an uptown girl is when i go downtown.

Friday, October 22, 2004

mariah carey's sister.... the hooker... ?

so..... rumor has it mariah carey has a sister who is still working as a prostitute. why? to support her drug habit. fact: mariah carey has a sister who was a prostitute and is a former heroin addict and currently hiv positive due to her past drug use. the way her sister tells the story, while Mariah was struggling for a break she paid for clothes and limo rides for the aspiring singer by selling her body for sex. this is from sources too numerous to name. the most reputable probably being The Guardian/UK


rumor: *cough* *cough*. i'm not going to say it, since i'm not really trying to get sued.



anyhow, i didn't believe this; i mean it's kind of wild. so i went looking for some information tonight. it makes sense though. from reviews of her she's lost 'like 70lbs' which would explain why this woman unlike all the others doesn't have any photos of her body included in her eros ad.

here's an old photo from a page at http://www.escorteverything.com/monica/


swipe from http://www.geocities.com/Hollywood/7867/abouther.htm


Every family has problems, no matter how small or large..... On Mariah's debut album, she wrote, "dedicated to my sister Alison - keep shining." While Mariah was rising to stardom, Alison was falling more and more into hopelessness. Every time they got Alison clean, she would go back to shooting heroin not soon after. Eventually, Alison contracted HIV - the virus that causes AIDS.

When Mariah learned of the news, she cried and cried, but could not do anything about it. Alison continued to do drugs. Alison had a 7-year-old son named Michael, and Mariah and her mother did not feel that he was growing up in a safe environment with drug dealers around. So one day when Alison's son was visiting Patricia in 1995, they wouldn't return him. Alison then took her own mother and sister to court, claiming that they "kidnapped" her son. Alison and Patricia were given joint custody of the Michael. Today, Michael lives with his grandmother.

Whether out of revenge or hatred or greed or whatever, Alison then wrote a book, helped by a guy named Vincent Presto. According to Vincent, "Her motivation in writing the book in not revenge. But after being branded everything from a scarlet woman to a bad mother, she wants to set the record straight." (yeah right)

Among other things, the book claims that money from Alison's prostitution helped Mariah and Patricia live through tough times, that she helped launch Mariah's career by buying her stage clothes and giving her money for food and rent, that Alison's lifestyle paid for the limo which took Mariah to her first singing audition, that one of Mariah's former boyfriends was a convicted drug dealer who tried to win her back from jail, and that Alison was sexually abused from the age of 5 by neighbors and a doctor (Sunday Mirror, 5/19/96).

Alison further states that her entire family disowned her when they learned of her "job," even though she used the money from it to support them. And now, Alison claims, Mariah has turned her back on her when she needs her the most, like when she was kicked out of her apartment for failing to pay the rent. But many people close to Mariah says that she had done everything she could to rescue her sister, but only ended the relationship when Alison continuously went back to drugs.

So far, the book has not found a publisher (could it be because it is a total lie?...hmmm) and I hope it never does. It is totally appalling how someone could write dirt on her own sister just to make money. It's bad enough that Mariah has been used for profit by other people, but your own sister!! Apparently, Alison still hasn't learned from her life of prostitution and drug-addition. Alison claims that her family has abandoned her, but how can her family help her if she refuses to help herself? I don't believe that a person as kind as Mariah who dedicated her first ever album to Alison would forget about her without good reason. If I had a sister like Alison, I would not have been so patient, but would have abandoned her long ago. In the off chance that the book does find a publisher, I just wish it will not convince anyone that it has any truth to it and that Alison fails miserably in her attempt at making money.




oh yeah, back to me. one client tonight. british, upper east side. i really hope he becomes a regular. i haven't had a regular who was good for friday nights since p. might write more about the session later.

some sex blog links


i don't know how to make a links section on the side yet. i am still figuring this blogger thing out.
waking vixen
this seems to be the most interesting blog so far.

mistress matisse

asian princess artifacts
i wish she would post more. i am going to try and find other stripper blogs

educated slut

maya
toronto escort

http://www.wakeup2004.com/images/blogads/washthatman.jpg


nonsex blogs
http://www.wonkette.com/
http://www.gothamist.com/

Thursday, October 21, 2004

so now you can see what i look like...



a photo from the vaults. i'll never use any from this series. theu're a little bit too skany or racy for me and a little bit too cliche. but, now you know what i look like.

i'd like to give my thanks to the boston red sox

this has been one of the *worst* weeks ever for business. every man in manhatttan has apparently been glued to his television set for the last 7 days, watching the yankees / red sox series series. i really shouldn't root for boston as a native new york. but, a girl has bills to pay.

and as soon as i came home from seeing m, i had three different calls from three different numbers. i think that's as many calls as i've gotten all day. possibly in the last two days. my ringer was off. it wasn't like i was going to see anyone at this hour... but, its good to know things are back to normal now.

one appointment tonight. i saw a regular tonight. m. from tennessee. he is this sort of doofy, aloof, chubby 28 year old emo/hipster kid who works for an indie record label. he's the sort who you'd imagine woudln't have much luck with girls. but he's nice enough and clean. i don't mind kinda chubby or fat people if they're pleasant enough and clean. good boy.

once i saw a fat guy and then i was like never again. i was naive. i thought, well... some days i will really have to earn my money. since then i've turned away a couple like um, NO sorry I just don't think this would be a very pleasant experience for either of us. FAKE SMILE, exits left. I did not need the money THAT bad. I was a bit pissy with the last one since I went all the way down to broad street and the fat fuck had lied about his weight. But, whatever, I like my job and i want to keep it that way.

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

okay so my roommate suggested that i do this

as in start writing all this down.
i've been working as a massage worker for a year.
i'm an independent.
meaning i do my own advertising
find and screen my own clients and all that.
this blog will discuss my trials and tribulations
good and bad experiences
as a student/sex worker.